Dear School:

You are slowly destroying me.
You’ve totally stripped me of my confidence, energy, and social life.
You know those situations….when you’re just happily gliding down the street and having a great day… then you trip over something that you should have seen and it knocks the coolness right out of you?

YOU are that unidentified “something”.

The stress of school + the stress in *every* other part of my life right now is not working for me.
But.. what to do?

Maybe not.

Just.. unexpected.

I didn’t think you would be the friend to reach out to me like that. I didn’t expect you to be that friend for me…

You didn’t have to. But I am so glad you did.

I love you for being you. Thank you.

I do not understand this whole phenomenon of non-confrontational confrontations… aka INTERNET beef.

Yes, I realize the hypocrisy of blogging about it.
Shut up. It’s my blog, I can do whatever I want.

Anyways.
Why would you bitch about a problem you have with me and air your shit over the net like that… as opposed to actually talking to me? How does that make any sense?
All it does is make me resent you for your immaturity.
Really, all it does is piss me off and not respect you.
And it is NOT okay for me to be getting a swarm of text messages from random people asking me what the hell is going on.

So whatever. You can have your internet beef because I don’t want any part of it.
Call me old fashioned, but I’d rather fight with you to your face.
At least then you *know* how angry I am.
Let’s just say, the internet would do no justice to my feelings of contempt at the moment.

It is just so unbelievably stupid.

That I really wanted to miss you.

So last weekend, I made the trip down to Calgary with my two of my lovely friends to go and see LENNY KRAVITZ!!

I have always been madly in love with him. He is a wicked musician and has such an amazing repetoire of songs… why would you try and hate on him??
Being able to actually be at one of his shows… it was such a phenomenal experience. Everything about it was awesome. I was just rockin out like the best of ‘em. He put on a great show, super personable, and he looked sexy as hell.

It took all my self control not to take off my top and throw myself at him. Seriously.

I was on such a Lenny high afterwards.. I could not even finish a sentence. I was definitely flying that night.
“I want to get away… I want to fly away…”

Can’t get over what a great night that was. I would love to see him again!
“I wonder if I’ll ever see you again..?”

What a fun weekend. Definitely nothing but good times.
Check the pics. Our camera basically shit out on us that weekend so whatever pics we got are of crappy quality. Oh well. I can relive that night in my mind forever!

To PRESIDENT OBAMA!!!!

I will never ever forget that moment.

Such a beautiful, sombre, AMAZING moment. My eyes started tearing up on their own..

That was a total moment of greatness.

I am so proud.

I hope America realizes the power they have to make their voice heard. Please don’t let up on that now. You need to stay involved because this is your future and YOUR country.

To quote PRESIDENT Obama: “I am *YOUR* president”.
So so so amazing.

It will get better.
In a very short amount of time, I went from feeling amazing to feeling… how I am now.

It will get better.

There must be something bright and positive at the end of it all.
If it ever ends.

1. I am so unbelievably exhausted by it all. But perseverance is key…

2. My life could drastically change in January. I don’t know how that will go.
   
3. To… you:
   Where are you? Can you even hear me?
   Be a presence in my life, if you’re going to be there.

4. I don’t think any of it is fair. Am I feeling sorry for myself? Probably.
   Until I can find a solution, I’m allowed to be sad.
   
5. I am feeling a whole bunch of things that I can barely admit to myself, let alone to you.
   
6. It always comes down to one person… but it’s never the same person for me.

7. Oh, and that*…? It could be better.
   

It is not okay that you can disappear for weeks at a time.
You might be busy. But so am I.
And even if I am, I still manage to drop everything for you when you decide to show your face.