An open letter July 20, 2008

To You:

You sound stupid when you’re all together.
You have no consideration for other people.
It is painful to witness how far your ignorance extends. It is absolutely limitless.

I can’t understand why I ever let myself be surrounded by such negativity.

The worst thing? You will never realize anything is wrong with the type of people you are. Thank goodness you have each other. But only each other. Don’t forget that.

I was the exception. But not anymore.

I’m writing this to remind myself that I want absolutely nothing to do with you. I am sad that I ignored some of my most important beliefs and compromised bits of myself for YOU. I convinced myself that YOU were worth the conflict.

I am still is disbelief that I let so many things go; everyone slips up sometimes right? I kept giving you the benefit of the doubt.

Never again.
Because when it comes down to it…

bitches don’t run shit.

Love,
Nicki

School stuff July 20, 2008

I’m officially a “University” student now. Oh joy.
I don’t really know how I feel about that yet. I am seriously going to miss GMac.

I can’t believe that is nowhere near September 3rd and I am already stressed about school.
I’m kind of annoyed that all the classes I need to take are already full. I’m have a gazillion classes on my watchlist and I’ve become obsessive about checking my email to see if anyone has dropped one of these classes. I think I check every 15 minutes now.

So that has actually added so much more stress to my life.  I have no idea what my schedule will be like. I hate feeling so unprepared. I hate waiting and having no answers! BAH!

Congratulations! July 20, 2008

Yay for Mike and Angel and the birth of their beautiful little girl, Liliana Grace.
Yay for Damien for becoming an older brother!
One big happy family

thanks kardinal July 20, 2008

“I’m married to the life. Go catch the bouquet.”

N word July 20, 2008

I was reading my gossip sites as usual and I came across this video clip of the View.

I watched it and I felt like Whoopi Goldberg stole the words right out of my mouth.
Elizabeth whats-her-face kind of got on my nerves here. — “We don’t live in different worlds”
Now what is wrong is this statement?

And why is SHE crying??

I don’t think a lot of people read my blog, but if you have anything intelligent to say after watching the clip, I want to hear it. Seriously, I want to know how others might be interpret this. I already know where my head is at. What do you think?

thanks weezy July 20, 2008

“Know where you’re going. And know where you’re at”

Cowtown ‘08 July 20, 2008

“Don’t hold back. Just have a good time.”

We decided we needed to get away for a little bit. It’s summer. We should be doing bigger and better things! Well… bigger and better things had to be put on hold so we could take a little detour to Calgary.

I don’t know what to say — it was fun, stressful and exciting at the same time. Just to get away for a few days was great, even if we didn’t go very far.

I couldn’t have asked for better friends to share this with. (shout out to Gugu + Vicks!)

We did make it out to see Ding Dong (for all who don’t know, youtube it. Jamaican Dancehall at its finest) at the Shorts vs. Skirts party. That may very well be the craziest party I have ever been to in my life. It was amazing! Too bad the camera batteries died and so I have no pics or videos of that night!

See ya next year Calgary!
Even in a different city — no one can do it as well as I can! Haha.

Oops. Oh my… July 20, 2008

No surprise here.
Seems like I’ve already forgotten about this thing!
Well… maybe not forgot. I think I just got lazy.
I finally have a few decent (ha!) things to talk about and I have absolutely no energy to log on and write anything.

So I’m going to try something else.
Blogging Blitz.

I am going to catch up with all my thoughts right now. Which means there could be a bazillion entries for one day. Then I won’t feel awful if I don’t write again for two weeks or something like that.

Enjoy.

Work stuff July 7, 2008

So it’s kinda busy at work right now.

People are lined up to use the computers, which is nothing new.

I’m not gonna lie though. People are being bitches today.

Don’t give me attitude about the public computers that in no way belong to you. Seriously.

People have cussed me out over the stupidest things today!
I think this job is making me SLIGHTLY crankier than usual. I swear I’m a freakin bundle of joy, for real. But I honestly don’t have patience for the clients here any more.
Learned helplessness is a terrible thing. A lot of the clients don’t feel the need to try and do things on their own and perhaps learn something. If you’re in a place like the LMIC, self-serving skills like independence and drive will actually help you find work, a place to live, etc. But nobody sees it that way and instead decide to bitch you out when you don’t go running to them because they don’t know how to use a photocopier.

I can’t even see the humor in it or anything. Well, at least not today.

It is Monday. No one is really that happy. Except for a few, the majority of my coworkers are pretty miserable as well.

On the plus side, I did eat ginger beef for lunch and it was fantastic.

 

But besides all of that, I really do like working here!

It’s a really nice change from the drama at my last job(s). I’m having a way easier time picking up on the new info and I know exactly what I need to do every time I get here.
And there’s easy access to ginger beef.

Yep. It’s great.

My, how things have changed. July 6, 2008

I don’t necessarily believe in the same things I used to.
I wrote this ages ago. Hard to say whether or not I still believe it.

I’ll love you because I did
I’ll love you because I still do
I’ll love you for what you accomplish
and I’ll love you when you think it’s not enough
I’ll love you through laughter and happiness
and I’ll love you through the tears
I’ll love you when you’re mad at the world
and I’ll love you when you’re mad at me
I’ll love you when things stop making sense
and I’ll love you when things break
I’ll love you when you hurt yourself
and I’ll love you when you hurt me
I’ll love you when you’re still searching
and I’ll love you when you’re confused
I’ll love you through all the changes
and I’ll love you when I can’t accept the things you do
I’ll love you if I don’t know who you are
and I’ll love you if I can’t remember who you were

I love that love is genuine
I love that love is pure.
I love that love will always be there

I know that love does not disappear.

Hearts may break
But never love.

You and I may cease to be.

But

love

just

is